Today Has Songs

Black Balloon

Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees

A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer

And there's no time left for losin'
When you stand they fall

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder

All because I'm
Comin' down the years turn over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me

--Goo Goo Dolls

Ghost

Lately I’ve been thinking
Lately I’ve been dreaming with you
I'm so resistant to this type of thinking
Oh, now it’s shining through
I was alone for the last time
Before my night’s vacation with you
Alive from the first
Now I’m denied by the ghost of you

You take yourself a photograph and laugh at me
Please

I know there’s little use in crying
It’s more wide awake and dying then I'm used to
I thought we’d walk these streets together
Now I’m hoping that I’ll never have to meet you
Step aside from all this anger
And somewhere in between I can feel you
Ask me should we try again
I’m thinking no
Y’know, it’s not what I believe in
It’s not what I believe in

You take yourself a photograph and laugh at me
Please
You make yourself a photograph and laugh at me
Please

No I, wanna taste you, love
no I...no I
no I, just wanna taste you, love

Standing in your shoes
I turn and now
You’re standing bare in my doorway
I only wish that I had been prepared
I’m gonna have to go along with your way
Just take the plastic camera out
It’s the pants you borrowed in the driveway
Alive from the first
Now I’m denied by the ghost of you

Make yourself a photograph and laugh at me
Please
You make yourself a photograph and laugh at me
Please

No I, wanna taste of love
No I...

I was alive from the first
now I’m denied by the ghost of you

--Howie Day

Make This Go On Forever

Please don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I Keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

--Snow Patrol

Today Has Songs!

Something Pretty

Here I am, where I’ve been
I’ve walked a hundred miles in tobacco skin,
And my clothes are worn & gritty.
And I know ugliness,
Now show me something pretty.
I was a dumb punk kid with nothing to lose
And too much weight for walking shoes.
I could have died from being boring.
As for loneliness,
She greets me every morning.

At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.

At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.

Here I am, where I’ve been
I’ve walked a hundred miles in tobacco skin,
And my clothes are worn & gritty.
And I know ugliness,
Now show me something pretty.

At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.

At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.

-- Patrick Park

Out Is Through

Every time you raise your voice
I see the greener grass
Every time you run for cover
I see this pasture
Every time we're in a funk
I picture a different choice
Every time we're in a rut
This distant grandeur

My tendency to want to do away feels natural
My urgency to dream of softer places feels understandable and I know

The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately

Every time I'm confused
I think there must be easier ways
Every time our horns are locked on toweling throwing
Every time we're at a loss, we've bolted from difficulty
Anytime we're still made of final bowing

My tendency to want to hide away feels easier and
The tendency is picturing another place comforting to go and I know

The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately

We could just walk away and hide our hands in the sand
We could just call it quits, only to start over again
With somebody else

Every time we're stuck in struggle, I'm down for the count that day
Every time I dream of quick fix I'm assuaged
Now I know it's hard when it's through
And I'm damned if I don't know quick fix way
What formerly was treatment silent's now outdated

My tendency to want to run feels unnatural now
The urgency to want to give to you what I want most feels good and I know

The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately

The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately

--Alanis Morisette

A Sorta Fairytale

On my way up north
Up on the Ventura
I pulled back the hood
And I was talking to you
And I knew then it would be
A life long thing
But I didn't know that we
We could break a silver lining

And Im so sad
Like a good book
I cant put this
Day back
A sorta fairytale
With you
A sorta fairytale
With you

Things you said that day
Up on the 101
The girl had come undone
I tried to downplay it
With a bet about us
You said that-
You'd take it
As long as I could
I could not erase it

And I'm so sad
Like a good book
I cant put this
Day back
A sorta fairytale
With you
A sorta fairytale
With you

And I ride along side
And I rode along side
You then
And I rode along side
Till you lost me there
In the open road
And I rode along side
Till the honey spread
Itself so thin
For me to break your bread
For me to take your word
I had to steal it

And I'm so sad
Like a good book
I cant put this
Day back
A sorta fairytale
With you
A sorta fairytale
With you

I could pick back up
Whenever I feel

Down New Mexico way
Something about
The open road
I knew that he was
Looking for some indian blood and
Find a little in you find a little
In me we may be
On this road but
We're just
Imposters
In this country you know
So we go along and we said
We'd fake it
Feel better with
Oliver stone
Till I
Almost smacked him -
Seemed right that night and
I don't know what
Takes hold
Out there in the
Desert cold
These guys think they must
Try and just get over on us

And I'm so sad
Like a good book
I can't put this
Day back
A sorta fairytale
With you
A sorta fairytale
With you

And I was ridin' by
Ridin' along side
For a while till you lost me
And I was ridin' by
Ridin' along till you lost me
Till you lost
Me in
The rear
View
You lost me
I said

Way up north I took my day
All in all was a pretty nice
Day and I put the hood
Right back where
You could taste heaven
Perfectly
Feel out the summer breeze
Didn't know when we'd be back
And I i don't
Didn't think
We'd end up like
Like this

--Tori Amos

Today Has Songs ... and a little content..

What an interesting last few weeks! I had a wonderful birthday... 30 doesn't really feel any different than 29 did, but hell, it's a milestone, right? I just want to thank all the people in my life for being there and being my friends. I love all of you.

Sweet The Sting

With a Strut into the room
With his hat cocked so defiantly he said
"I - I have heard that you can
Play the way I like it to be played."
I said, "I can play, any way that you want.
But first I want, I want to know

Baby is it sweet sweet
Sweet the sting
Is it real this infusion
Can it heal where others before have failed?
If so then somebody
Shake shake shake me sane
'cause I am inching ever closer to the tip of this scorpion's tail"

He said "I laid my weapons
down with my pistol
Fully loaded, a hunted man
To my root, will it end
Or begin in your cinnabar juice?"

Is it sweet sweet
Sweet the sting
Is it real this infusion
Can it heal where others before have failed?
If so then somebody
Shake shake shake me sane
'cause I am inching ever closer to the tip of this scorpion's tail"

Love let me breathe
Breathe you in
Melt the confusion
Until there is
Union...

-Tori Amos

You're All I Have

Strain This Chaos Turn It Into Light
I've Got To See You One Last Night
Before The Lions Take Their Share
Leave Us In Pieces, Scattered Everywhere

Just Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Just Give Me Something To Hold Onto

It's So Clear Now
That You Are All That I Have
I Have No Fear Cos
You Are All That I Have
It's So Clear Now That
You Are All That I Have
I Have No Fear Cos
You Are All That I Have

You're Cinematic Razor Sharp
A Welcome Arrow Through The Heart
Under Your Skin Feels Like Home
Electric Shocks On Aching Bones

Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Just Give Me Something To Hold Onto

It's So Clear Now
That You Are All That I Have
I Have No Fear
Cos You Are All That I Have
It's So Clear Now
That You Are All That I Have
I Have No Fear
Cos You Are All That I Have

There Is A Darkness Deep In You
A Frightening Magic I Cling To

Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Give Me A Chance To Hold On
Just Give Me Something To Hold Onto

It's So Clear Now
That You Are All That I Have
I Have No Fear
Now You Are All That I Have
It's So Clear Now
That You Are All That I Have
I Have No Fear Now
You Are All That I Have

--Snow Patrol


Wonderland

Take a piece of the sky
Make it rain cherry wine
Give her love give her life
Give her mine

She's a child young and willing
In a world that's unforgiving
That in time takes all the living
From your soul

I stand in the night with a silver sword
Killing her demons, beating 'em off her door
Sleep baby don't you cry
Daddy's got a worn-out lullaby
And I live forever dark, and damned
To see you spend one minute
In wonderland

She can run free forever
Still our blood runs us together
I'll be there if she runs home
For worse or better

I know you like Adam knew Eve
Every tear you cry is a tear that I will bleed
Sleep baby don't you cry
Daddy's got a worn-out lullaby
And I live forever dark, and damned
To see you spend one minute
In wonderland

--Angie Aparo

We're Not Letting This Go...

I hope that most of my readers (if there are any of you left) have heard about the raid on the Rainbow Lounge in Fort Worth on June 28th. TABC Officers, assisted by Ft. Worth Police, brutalized 6 people in a supposed "site check" of the bar, which had only been open for ONE WEEK. One of those 6, Chad Gibson, was hospitalized because they bashed his head in. His skull was fractured and he had a subdural hematoma. Chad is a small person, he weighs less than 150 lbs. Yes, he was drunk, but eyewitnesses state that he was not combative or resisting when the officers came into the bar.

The irony of the situation? It happened forty years to the HOUR of Stonewall. That can not be a coincidence.

Fort Worth Police and the TABC have issued this statement about what happened; there is an "investigation" going on at the moment, and the TABC officers involved have been assigned desk duty while that happens. The Ft. Worth police department has suspended operations with the TABC until this is figured out. However, no answers have been forthcoming.

Lately, my lovely wife and I have been active with a group called QueerLiberaction. We attended a "Milk Box" forum (after Harvey Milk) on July 5th, and we attended the rally in Fort Worth on July 12th. There has been little to no local media coverage of these events. They have been peaceful, organized, and non-threatening. This video, made by a friend of ours, shows scenes from the rally and short "sound bites" from people who were there. Why isn't THIS being shown in the press?



Instead, what leads the online coverage today in the Ft. Worth Star-Telegram is this. Why is it that when we're doing our thing peacefully, we get no attention? There were three hundred people in Fort Worth on Sunday. We stopped traffic on Main Street when we marched to City Hall to post our demands on the doors. There has been NO mention of this in any of the local press, except for two small TV soundbites, one on ABC, the other on NBC. The Dallas Morning News and the Ft. Worth Star-Telegram have not covered this protest at all online. The few papers that have covered the story have relegated it to back pages and small blurbs. But as soon as we show up en masse at a Ft. Worth City Counsel meeting, THAT makes the news. When we get ejected from that meeting for voicing our concerns, THAT makes the news.

When does it stop? When do we get our say?

The reason that we're out there, rallying, marching, fighting for our civil rights is because we're tired of being treated like someone else's problem. We intend to get what has been promised to us since Stonewall, and what "normal" people have had seemingly forever. We deserve our Civil Rights. And we're not going to stop until we get them.

Today Has Songs!

I heard this walking to the office this morning and it totally resonated.

School Night

She went over to his apartment
Clutching her decision
And he said, "did you come here to tell me goodbye?"
So she built a skyscraper of procrastination
And then she leaned out the twenty-fifth floor window
Of her reply
And she felt like an actress
Just reading her lines
When she finally said
"Yes. it's really goodbye this time."
And far below was the blacktop
And the tiny toy cars
And it all fell so fast
And it all fell so far

And she said:
"You are a miracle but that is not all
You are also a stiff drink and i am on call
You are a party and i am a school night
And i'm lookin' for my door key
But you are my porch light

And you'll never know, dear
Just how much i loved you
You'll probably think this was
Just my big excuse
But i stand committed
To a love that came before you
And the fact that i adore you
Is but one of my truths."

"What of the mother
Whose house is in flames
And both of her children
Are in their beds crying
And she loves them both
With the whole of her heart
But she knows she can only
Carry one at a time?
She's choking on the smoke
Of unthinkable choices
She is haunted by the voices
Of so many desires
She's bent over from the business
Of begging forgiveness
While frantically running around
Putting out fires"

"But then what kind of scale
Compares the weight of two beauties
The gravity of duties
Or the ground speed of joy?
Tell me what kind of gauge
Can quantify elation?
What kind of equation
Could i possibly employ?
And you'll never know, dear
Just how much i loved you
You probably think this was
Just my big excuse
But i stand committed
To a love that came before you
And the fact that i adore you
Is just one of my truths"

"so i
i'm goin' home
to please the one i so love pleasing
and i don't expect
he'll have much sympathy for my grieving
but i guess that this is the price
that we pay for the privilege
of living for even a day
in a world with so many things
worth believing
in."

--Ani DiFranco

Collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

-- Howie Day

Time After Time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows you're wondering
If I'm ok
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

You said go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

-- Cyndi Lauper (covered by Rob Thomas)

Today Has Songs

Trouble

Oh no, I see,
A spider web is tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
Oh no, what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
So I turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

Oh no, I see,
A spider web and its me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here I am in my little bubble,
Singing

I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

-- Coldplay

Over You

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming;
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces,
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure;
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.


--Daughtry

How to Save a Life

Step one, you say "we need to talk,"
He walks; you say "sit down it's just a talk."
He smiles politely back at you;
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And I pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
You will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

--The Fray

Today Has Songs

Today's songs are up and down, which is how i've felt lately... but I'm feeling much better about things and have made some decisions which will help me to move forward!

Hemorrhage In My Hands

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters 'till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don't you remember anything I said when I said

Don't fall away, and leave me to myself
Don't fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

Oh hold me now I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you've left to go?
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don't fall away, and leave me to myself
Don't fall away, and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

And I wanted
You turned away
You don't remember, but I do
You never even tried

Don't fall away and leave me to myself
Don't fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

--Fuel

Lately

That the sky would lift
That I'd find my place
That I'd see your face in the door
And the sun would glint
An a time well spent
An a time that ain't no more

Taste the broken hearts
In the vacant lots
See the fruit that rots on the trees
Try to turn my head
Leave it all for dead
But it's in my mind always

Honey lately I've been way down
A load on my mind
Honey lately I've been way down
Load on my mind

Someone tell me where did it go
Darling I'm damned if i know
I seen that look in your eye
No-one ever gave it a chance
I could have said in advance
You saw it all at a glance
And goodbye

Drag a salted kiss
From this cup of bliss
Watch a new lie twist on the breeze

You can paint it red
Leave it all for dead
But it's in my head always

Honey lately I've been way down
A load on my mind
Honey lately I've been way down
Load on my mind

Someone tell me where did it go
Darling I'm damned if i know
I seen that look in your eye
No-one ever gave it a chance
I could have said in advance
You saw it all at a glance
And goodbye

Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye

Honey lately i've been way down
Honey lately i've been way down
Honey lately i've been way down
Honey lately i've been way down
Lately
Lately

--David Gray

Language or the Kiss

I don't know if it was real or in a dream
Lately waking up I'm not sure where I've been
There was a table set for six and five were there
I stood outside and kept my eyes upon that empty chair
And there was steam on the windows from the kitchen
Laughter like a language I once spoke with ease
But I'm made mute by the virtue of decision
And I choose most of your life goes on without me
Oh the fear I've known
That I might reap the praise of strangers
And end up on my own
All I've sown was a song
But maybe I was wrong

I said to you the one gift which I'd adore
The package of the next 10 years unfolding
But you told me if I had my way I'd be bored
Right then I knew I loved you best born of your scolding
When we last talked we were lying on our backs
Looking at the sky through the ceiling
I used to lie like that alone out on the driveway
Trying to read the greek upon the stars
The alphabet of feeling
Oh I knew back then
It was a calling that said if joy then pain
The sound of the voice these years later
Is still the same

I am alone in a hotel room tonight
I squeeze the sky out but there's not a star appears
Begin my studies with this paper and this pencil
And I'm working through the grammar of my fears
Oh mercy what I won't give
To have the things that mean the most
Not to mean the things I miss
Unforgiving the choice still is
The language or the kiss

--Indigo Girls

Today Has Songs....

... I'm starting to feel a little better, so today has some different songs:

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

-- Snow Patrol

The Other Side

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side
I'll see you on the other side
See you on the other side

Honey now if I'm honest
I still don't know what love is

Another mirage folds
Into the haze of time recalled
And now the floodgates cannot hold
All my sorrow all my rage
A teardrop falls on every page

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side

Maybe I oughta mention
Was never my intention
To harm you or your kin
Are you so scared to look within
The ghosts are crawling on our skin
We may race and we may run
We'll not undo what has been done
Or change the moment when its gone

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side
I'll see you on the other side
I'll see you on the other side

I know it would be outrageous
To come on all courageous
And offer you my hand
To pull you up on to dry land
When all I got is sinking sand

The trick ain't worth the time it buys
I'm sick of hearing my own lies

And love's a raven when it flies

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side
I'll see you on the other side

Honey now if I'm honest
I still don't know what love is...

Send "The Other Side" Ringtone to Cell Phone

--David Gray

Mercury

She is trapped inside a month of gray
And they take a little every day
She is a victim of her own responses
Shackled to a heart that wants to settle
And then runs away

Its a sin to be fading endlessly
Yeah, but she's all right with me

She is leaving on a walkaway
She is leaving me in disarray
In the absence of a place to be
She stands there looking back at me
Hesitates, and then turns away

She'll change so suddenly
She's just like mercury
Yeah, but she's all right with me

Keep some sorrow in your hearts and minds
For the things that die before their time
For the restlessly abandoned homes
The tired and weary ramblers' bones
And stay beside me where I lie

She's entwined in me
Crazy as can be
Yeah, but she's all right with me

Send "Mercury" Ringtone to Cell Phone

-- Counting Crows

Today Has Songs....

... all from Afterglow, which is about where i'm at right now.

Time

time here
all but means nothing
just shadows that move 'cross the wall
they keep me company
but they don't ask of me
they don't say nothin' at all

i need just a little more silence,
i need just a little more time...

you send your thieves to me
silently stalking me
dragging me into your war
would you give me no choice in this?
i know you can't resist
trying to reopen a sore


so leave me be,
i don't want to argue
i'd just get confused and i'd come all undone
if i agree, well its just to appease you
'cause i don't remember what we're fighting for

you see love
a tight thorny thread that you spin in a circle of gold
to have me to hold me
a token for all to see
captured to be yours alone

i need just a little more silence,
yeah i need just a little more time

for courage to pull away
there will be hell to pay
deeper you cut the bone

so leave me be,
i don't want to argue
i'd just get confused and i'd come all undone
if i agree, well its just to appease you
'cause i don't remember what we're fighting for

time here
all but means nothing
just shadows that move 'cross the wall
they keep me company
but they don't ask of me
they don't say nothin' at all

so leave me be,
i don't want to argue
i'd just get confused and i'd come all undone
if i agree, well its just to appease you
'cause i don't remember what we're fighting for

--Sarah McLachlan

Fallen

Heaven bend to take my hand
Lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear --

Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so

We all began with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our backs the burdens
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I held so dear --

I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so

Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
Lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so
Oh
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so

--Sarah McLachlan

Dirty Little Secret

If i had the chance love
i would not hesitate
to tell you all things i never said before
don't tell me its too late
'Cause i've relied on my illusions
to keep me warm at night
and i denied in my capacity to love
that i am willing to give up this fight

been up all night drinking
to drown my sorrows down
but nothing seems to help me since you went away
i'm so tired of this town
where every tongue is wagging
when every back is turned
they're telling secrets that should never be revealed
there's nothing to be gained from this but disaster

here's a good one
did you hear about my friend
he's embarrassed to be seen now
'cause we all know his sins

If i had the chance love
you know i would not hesitate
to tell you all the things i never said before
don't tell me its too late
'cause i've relied on my illusions
to keep me warm at night
and i denied in my capacity to love
but i am willing to give up this fight
oh i am willing to give up this fight

--Sarah McLachlan