Today Has Songs

Today's songs are up and down, which is how i've felt lately... but I'm feeling much better about things and have made some decisions which will help me to move forward!

Hemorrhage In My Hands

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters 'till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don't you remember anything I said when I said

Don't fall away, and leave me to myself
Don't fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

Oh hold me now I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you've left to go?
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don't fall away, and leave me to myself
Don't fall away, and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

And I wanted
You turned away
You don't remember, but I do
You never even tried

Don't fall away and leave me to myself
Don't fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding

--Fuel

Lately

That the sky would lift
That I'd find my place
That I'd see your face in the door
And the sun would glint
An a time well spent
An a time that ain't no more

Taste the broken hearts
In the vacant lots
See the fruit that rots on the trees
Try to turn my head
Leave it all for dead
But it's in my mind always

Honey lately I've been way down
A load on my mind
Honey lately I've been way down
Load on my mind

Someone tell me where did it go
Darling I'm damned if i know
I seen that look in your eye
No-one ever gave it a chance
I could have said in advance
You saw it all at a glance
And goodbye

Drag a salted kiss
From this cup of bliss
Watch a new lie twist on the breeze

You can paint it red
Leave it all for dead
But it's in my head always

Honey lately I've been way down
A load on my mind
Honey lately I've been way down
Load on my mind

Someone tell me where did it go
Darling I'm damned if i know
I seen that look in your eye
No-one ever gave it a chance
I could have said in advance
You saw it all at a glance
And goodbye

Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye

Honey lately i've been way down
Honey lately i've been way down
Honey lately i've been way down
Honey lately i've been way down
Lately
Lately

--David Gray

Language or the Kiss

I don't know if it was real or in a dream
Lately waking up I'm not sure where I've been
There was a table set for six and five were there
I stood outside and kept my eyes upon that empty chair
And there was steam on the windows from the kitchen
Laughter like a language I once spoke with ease
But I'm made mute by the virtue of decision
And I choose most of your life goes on without me
Oh the fear I've known
That I might reap the praise of strangers
And end up on my own
All I've sown was a song
But maybe I was wrong

I said to you the one gift which I'd adore
The package of the next 10 years unfolding
But you told me if I had my way I'd be bored
Right then I knew I loved you best born of your scolding
When we last talked we were lying on our backs
Looking at the sky through the ceiling
I used to lie like that alone out on the driveway
Trying to read the greek upon the stars
The alphabet of feeling
Oh I knew back then
It was a calling that said if joy then pain
The sound of the voice these years later
Is still the same

I am alone in a hotel room tonight
I squeeze the sky out but there's not a star appears
Begin my studies with this paper and this pencil
And I'm working through the grammar of my fears
Oh mercy what I won't give
To have the things that mean the most
Not to mean the things I miss
Unforgiving the choice still is
The language or the kiss

--Indigo Girls

Today Has Songs....

... I'm starting to feel a little better, so today has some different songs:

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

-- Snow Patrol

The Other Side

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side
I'll see you on the other side
See you on the other side

Honey now if I'm honest
I still don't know what love is

Another mirage folds
Into the haze of time recalled
And now the floodgates cannot hold
All my sorrow all my rage
A teardrop falls on every page

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side

Maybe I oughta mention
Was never my intention
To harm you or your kin
Are you so scared to look within
The ghosts are crawling on our skin
We may race and we may run
We'll not undo what has been done
Or change the moment when its gone

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side
I'll see you on the other side
I'll see you on the other side

I know it would be outrageous
To come on all courageous
And offer you my hand
To pull you up on to dry land
When all I got is sinking sand

The trick ain't worth the time it buys
I'm sick of hearing my own lies

And love's a raven when it flies

Meet me on the other side
Meet me on the other side
I'll see you on the other side

Honey now if I'm honest
I still don't know what love is...

Send "The Other Side" Ringtone to Cell Phone

--David Gray

Mercury

She is trapped inside a month of gray
And they take a little every day
She is a victim of her own responses
Shackled to a heart that wants to settle
And then runs away

Its a sin to be fading endlessly
Yeah, but she's all right with me

She is leaving on a walkaway
She is leaving me in disarray
In the absence of a place to be
She stands there looking back at me
Hesitates, and then turns away

She'll change so suddenly
She's just like mercury
Yeah, but she's all right with me

Keep some sorrow in your hearts and minds
For the things that die before their time
For the restlessly abandoned homes
The tired and weary ramblers' bones
And stay beside me where I lie

She's entwined in me
Crazy as can be
Yeah, but she's all right with me

Send "Mercury" Ringtone to Cell Phone

-- Counting Crows

Today Has Songs....

... all from Afterglow, which is about where i'm at right now.

Time

time here
all but means nothing
just shadows that move 'cross the wall
they keep me company
but they don't ask of me
they don't say nothin' at all

i need just a little more silence,
i need just a little more time...

you send your thieves to me
silently stalking me
dragging me into your war
would you give me no choice in this?
i know you can't resist
trying to reopen a sore


so leave me be,
i don't want to argue
i'd just get confused and i'd come all undone
if i agree, well its just to appease you
'cause i don't remember what we're fighting for

you see love
a tight thorny thread that you spin in a circle of gold
to have me to hold me
a token for all to see
captured to be yours alone

i need just a little more silence,
yeah i need just a little more time

for courage to pull away
there will be hell to pay
deeper you cut the bone

so leave me be,
i don't want to argue
i'd just get confused and i'd come all undone
if i agree, well its just to appease you
'cause i don't remember what we're fighting for

time here
all but means nothing
just shadows that move 'cross the wall
they keep me company
but they don't ask of me
they don't say nothin' at all

so leave me be,
i don't want to argue
i'd just get confused and i'd come all undone
if i agree, well its just to appease you
'cause i don't remember what we're fighting for

--Sarah McLachlan

Fallen

Heaven bend to take my hand
Lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear --

Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so

We all began with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our backs the burdens
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I held so dear --

I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so

Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
Lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so
Oh
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so

--Sarah McLachlan

Dirty Little Secret

If i had the chance love
i would not hesitate
to tell you all things i never said before
don't tell me its too late
'Cause i've relied on my illusions
to keep me warm at night
and i denied in my capacity to love
that i am willing to give up this fight

been up all night drinking
to drown my sorrows down
but nothing seems to help me since you went away
i'm so tired of this town
where every tongue is wagging
when every back is turned
they're telling secrets that should never be revealed
there's nothing to be gained from this but disaster

here's a good one
did you hear about my friend
he's embarrassed to be seen now
'cause we all know his sins

If i had the chance love
you know i would not hesitate
to tell you all the things i never said before
don't tell me its too late
'cause i've relied on my illusions
to keep me warm at night
and i denied in my capacity to love
but i am willing to give up this fight
oh i am willing to give up this fight

--Sarah McLachlan